What To Believe?

W.C. Fields was an atheist. On his deathbed he was reading a Bible. When asked about this, he replied that he was looking for a loophole. It made me wonder what it means when people, including myself, say,"I am not religious but I am spiritual." Do we really believe in God? I think so but I do not believe in Him the way a lot of people do. I tend to lean towards thinking when we are dead, we are, unfortunately dead. No heaven or hell seems realistic, just a comfort for some. After someone you love dies the thought that they are now living in heaven and happy is a lot more comforting than just thinking they are six feet under. I believe God is there but does not plan everything. I also feel that the all-loving God would not punish or reward.

Declaring yourself an atheist is so final. Are we wanting to conform with society just a little by believing? I like the comfort that someone is above watching over us but not controling us like puppets. But is it just safer to believe in God than not? Just in case...don't burn your bridges.
What if that lightening actually did strike us? Were those Christians right all along?

I recently asked God for something for myself. I have never done that. I pray but for others. Asking God for something for myself always seemed a little selfish. But I did it. I wanted this HSP gone, therefore my son would not get it. I still have it, so prayers are not really answered. If they were... children would not die, there would be no illness, bad things just would not happen. I knew this would be the result, but what the hell, gotta keep one foot in the door just in case...